SCARLETWITCH

11:37 pm: energy rush
can you say"whoosh"..thats what my energy has been like all day...whoosh.i went to the strawberry festival too..that didnt help calm it...just made it stronger...micheal and i went together...it was alot of fun..i had to go..i had this vibe that there was something there that i needed to get or find..i found it....a beautiful necklace of shell and turquoise...you ought to see it..fits me perfectly,considering i,m conected to the sea and my sea goddess yemaya.in fact,the items i purchased there--the ones that gave off the most"pull" were all related to her or of the water element..thats what called to me.

i was sick for 3 weeks,and i,m just now starting to feel normal again..and now that i am,my energy is coming in rushes...i,m keeping myself cleansed with salt and florida water and salt baths...especially after work dancing...i come home and fix an epsom salts bath..for all my poor sore muscles and for the cleansing...a double purpose whammy..works like a charm.all my pets are doing well..the doves,hermit crabs,cats,plants.although i had to take many of my plants to lutz because of the fire marshall saying nothing can be on the porch..and being away from me has affected them..i think its because of the nasty well water i gave them..its turning them brown.ugh.

well,i have work to do..more house cleanisng...later

11:14 am: much to discuss here
so much time has passed since my last entry.I,ve gone through alot of changes.one of the bigger changes was switching jobs.the job i did have was draining to my personal and spiritual energy.It got to the point where i,d feel negative about it even before i stepped onto the job property..and financially speaking,it just wasnt as profitable as it needed to be to keep me there...so i left and did something else..now the money is steady and theres less stress.

my "mommy" role at home as expanded by leaps and bounds...used to be just 4 cats..now its 4 cats,2 doves,6 finches,and NUMEROUS plants,both outside my front door and on my porch.I dont even have to buy plants anymore...being that i live in an apartment complex,people are always moving in and out..and most leave plants behind when they do vacate the premises.The maintenanace guy knows i,m a plant freak,and lets me know about plants that have been left..and i go and bring them back to take home with me.my two porches are almost overloaded with plants that i,ve rescued.still.its rewarding,to see how those neglected plants thrive with tlc.its a full time job caring for my animals,my plants,and myself and my fiance.

the hermit crab sitation was totally by accident.my fiance and i were at a mall,looking around,when we happened upon a shop with a hermit crab display,,it was around christmas time.it was a nice roomy display,but i felt sorry for the poor crabs because i,m sure with it being open,that kids would reach in and poke at them all day and night long.i promptly brought 2 home that night..and then i went back to buy 6 more later on after i purchased a larger aquarium.i,ve done alot of reading online to make sure they stay healthy.hermit crabs are cool to have.they are easy pets,yet not..you have to pay attention to certain details.like humidity--keeping a tank humid,so they breathe right.the right kind of food,blah blah blah.lots of studying to do.

magically speaking,since i switched jobs,i feel like my energy has stabilized,if not gotten stronger.visions come to me in my dreams.i can feel auras now,more then i used to..i,m getting very sensitive to certain things.its like whatever that was keeping me from peaking in energy and sensitivity levels is gone now and i,m more aware of things.for some reason,the picture of a bathtub draining comes to mind when i think of my previous job..the moment i left,the tub stopped draining and started to fill up..i,m the tub.now i can become the ocean of energy i need to be to get things done.

i,m happier now-more calm...and thats all i want to say for now..later

09:13 am: TRIGGERS
sometimes things you wouldnt expect become triggers that make you almost remember things from a past life..

such is the case with me.

i,m a big fan of world music..i like all kinds...mainly ambient/chill out lounge music...that,and techno/dance..but i lean more towards the exotic sounding stuff..like arabic,asian,and now greek.

yesterday i purchased a cd of greek techno/dance..great cd...listening to it,i got a sense of deja vu..the language sounded so familiar to me..as if i,d once spoken it and forgotten how--and the music was making me remember speaking it...then i went home and had a LONG vivid dream..i saw a woman named ANHNA.i saw how she looked..dark hair,dark skin,and VERY light colored green eyes...saw her as she was dressed,and she had a husband and her life--and there was a natural disaster that left her injured-an earthquake.the surroundings were of the middle east--desert land..anhna was dressed from head to toe in swathed cloth...i had the distinct feeling in the dream that anhna was me,and i was remembering something from one of my pasts.i guess the greek music triggered the memory...anybody else have something like that happen to them?

01:18 pm: 3 SYMBOLS FROM A DREAM LAST NIGHT
these were revealed to me

a rainbow..

the full moon

a hurricane


have to meditate on these a bit...

later

01:54 pm: more adopted "children"
of the plant variety that is...

my grandmother is moving out of her house,so i grabbed all the sickly looking potted plants she had to take home with me over a week ago....and then a downstairs neighbor also moved out and gave me a total of 3 more...so,i probably aquired 7 or 8 new adopted plant children in the last two weeks..

i think its safe to say i,m maxxed out on plants...both my front porch and my back porch are loaded.all of them i had to repot and give new soil to.like i said,things just seem to find me sometimes.the energy that they give both porches is great now though....better positive chi(life energy,for all those not familiar to feng shui)i have all those plants to look at when i get up the stairs-plus the windchimes above my door.
plants and windchimes add positive chi...and the way my apartment is on the second floor,it needs it...the gray color of the floor and ceiling is drab,and the the staircase going up the 3rd level has sharp corners-bad feng shui.

well,thats it for now...later

04:40 pm: LAST NIGHT
last night i had to deal with a situation at work..a girl there who wants constant tarot card readings decided to grab someone elses cards(without permission)and use them for a reading--i was horrified.thats a big no no-using someone elses cards for a reading,and then also doing it without permission-i told her was a bad idea..and that i disapproved-but shes headstrong,and did it anyway...i sprinkled florida water on the cards to clean them(because at first she said she "found"them,and i thought she meant finding them someplace other then at work),but still,to use someone elses magickal tools like that is bad karma-i scolded her for doing so-she felt bad-as well she should have...people who have no respect for tools have no business fooling with someone elses stuff.i,ve been doing the cards for years-and i know what to do and i understand why guidelines are set down when it comes to using them....she,on the other hand,has no respect for rules obviously and doesnt care for learning about the rules-she just is so eager to get readings done. that she doesnt wait to find out how to do things correctly first.

i wasnt happy with her last night at all..

more later

03:20 pm: havent done this in awhile
been so busy..

went to see a tarot reader the other day.someone new i have never seen before.i thought i,d give her a chance to see it it worked out-no dice-the chick had no clue--so,i,ll just stick to the two i normally see--one who is a santeria spiritualist,and the other who is more accurate and descriptive then she is.seeing the new person wasnt a total lost-some of the things she said DID stick,but i just didnt feel like she "got it" one hundred percent...i,d say she was operating about 30-45.not good for someone who can get 40 for a half hour or more for an hour-you should at least nail about 75-80 or more percent of info down for that kind of money.

i,ve slowed down on buying books..the last ones i,ve bought involved books on spell working-diffrent ideas on what i can do and what i can use for spellcasting..between books on santeria and witchcraft,my ideas have more then doubled.i dont work alot of spells-i just like finding out info for times when i decide to.

one of the more interesting things i,ve read about was about using a persons own footprints against them...its an old practice in hoodoo/voodoo religon and practices..you gather dust or dirt from a persons footprint,mix it with other ingrediants,and then you can use it for spell working....sometimes the footprint dust/dirt is used to reverse black magic if the person is suspected of casting a spell against someone..i never knew a footprint could be worked like that..now i know.

i recommend anyone to read some of deepak chopras books---very interesting,informative stuff.

well,thats it for now-later

12:06 pm: BEEN AWHILE
yes it has been.

but just bcause i havent recorded in awhile doesnt mean i,ve been idle-quite the opposite.

lets see...where to begin.

first order of business---clean and arrange things in the house to promote energy flow and power.

that unto itself,was a large undertaking,requiring many hours of moving,arranging,cleaning,and buying bookshelves to get all books that were on the floor,off the floor.micheal helped me...together we made this house more restful and peaceful.i can truly say that now my house feels balanced.

even the carpet got cleaned..it was dirty and needed it badly...its been soiled since my ex husband stayed here,and often soiled the carpet with his grease and grime stained shoes.He was a mechanic,and the leftovers would stick to his shoes and stain my beige carpet

cleaning the carpet also removed his leftover energy.

i,ve halted on buying any more stone or quartz pieces-as is,i have more then enough,and if i buy something,its got to connect me within seconds or else it doesnt get bought.very little catches my attention like that these days.

the last piece i bought was at this stone shop called wallies...they have a good selection,but they are WAY,WAY overpriced,and the way they have things arranged is messy-none of the pieces are cleaned and put neatly away so you can see everything easily.its all cluttery,and the pieces are raw and dirty,sold by weight--and none have prices,which i dont like--that means they can switch the price to whatever they choose.sounds shady to me...i go there knowing i can get stuff online and i,m careful about what i buy--i bought a VERY large piece of rose quartz there-and made them come down on the price-i,m not afriad to bargain-rose quartz is very common and has no business being priced expensively.I cleaned the piece when i got home and put it on my coffee table to add comfort and warmth to the room-theres a small rose quartz candleholder next to it-i need to get another one to have a matching set.

went to BORDERS bookstore yesterday-picked up a few books on spells and magic--one in particular is unique-called THE URBAN PRIMITIVE ..great boook-a little edgy-gives alot of off the cuff ideas for things to use in spells and spellcrafting.will add a new dimension in things i use now.

I,ve been working out and getting more in shape the past 7 months,and the overall effect has been very positive...i think every self respecting witch or magick worker owes it to themselves to treat their bodies with the same care they would their athame or their staff and hone it to a fine point to be not only more balanced,but so they can do more powerful and effective magick..your body IS your temple,and if the body is polluted or sluggish,so then will be the magick that comes from within.exercise promotes energy and body balance-yoga and mediatation clears the pathways of soul and mind so that the body can respond to thy will.put altogether and you have a most powerful temple indeed.

there is a hurricane coming towards tampa today--and i am sensitive to it coming-micheal is to-you can FEEL the charge in the air--the powerful energy-micheal cant sit still because of it(lol)hes a fireball of energy anyway,but the hurricane charging the air with energy is making him restless to DO something..this is a good time to do spells-with the atmosphere so alive and ready to make magick take flight.

well,thats enough for now-later

09:49 am: When you have something good in your life
the forces of opposition will test you and try to take that which makes you happy away from you...or send you down a wrong path when you,re starting to get on the right one...i,m more focused then i,ve ever been on making my life complete and my soul complete.I,m working out and seeing a difference in myself already..i feel better from the inside out.The lifeforce is flowing freely inside me again.Poetry and compositions are coming to me again..my mind is alive with life and is no longer blocked and crippled with pain or depression,indeed,my chakras are on fire-the lifeforce of chi flows between them.

there are naysayers in my life.people who compose a weak,rude peanut gallery,booing and hissing from the sidelines because their own lives suck..but that section is very small,and their reasons so limp and void of real reason to hate,so i pay no attention...my inner self tells me "they are like small fire ants who bite and miss out on the harmony of the colony-let them be-life will squash them in time"so i do.

I,m doing more reading these days.I just picked up a book called EARTH AIR FIRE WATER..its very good.

(JUNIOR hops up on my lap,purring,so now i have to type slow with him in the way.)

I need to be near yemaya..perhaps next weekend.the waters of my life are churning,and it would be good to go to the beach and center myself.

more later

07:30 pm: Mental spring cleaning and soul realization
its been awhile between recordings in here....i,m going through alot of changes..its a period of intertwined growth and letting go of things negative and hurtful.My relationship with my ex,bryan is over,but its taken me this long to completely let it go.I had to let the pain of my marriage ending come to the surface and flow out...and grieve for my marriage--the death of a commitment like that is always hard,even if the person was no good for you and did nothing for you and you know that,still,the heart demands its time to cry its tears and grieve.

i,ve passsed through STAGE 1 of the breakup,which was having the courage to look at everything in the eye and say"enough is enough...lets end it"..i spoke up..i had to...it was useless to continue...i dropped the a-bomb,and just like any bomb,once it hit it exploded...he cried,i cried...he freaked out,tried to change my mind,i held my stance,he made threats,i didnt budge.it was hard...once i told him goodbye,then came the period of the shock and relization of what i,d done settling in my brain,and the mental reajustment of knowing he was really gone.thats the secound part of PHASE ONE...the part where the dust is settling...you get lonley,you get scared,you miss the person--because they become familiar to your enviroment...you get subconciously used to that person being around,the way they look,the sound of their voice,the smell of their skin,and if its all ripped away,it can be a strange,unsettling,and scary feeling.

then theres PHASE TWO...the period of cleansing and release...putting or throwing away anything that will remind you of that person and love lost...any mementoes,but its important to do so,even though it will trigger memories....if not dealt will,these things will just lie around and haunt you-they also carry sad and bitter energy...thats why it has to be put or thrown away...i threw away all mementoes,..all pictures,clothes...all of it..i wanted no bad energy around me to cling like thorns and ruin my complete happiness.i smudged my house and cleaned every rooom out of all unnessesary clutter.Once it was all gone i felt a difference in my home..the pain was gone.

now its on to PHASE 3....the rebirth and growth of the soul...now that the emotional chains that held me down are gone,and i,m left with the space and energy to look at my self and contimplate what i want to do..any and all goals...i,m working out,to fine tune and beautify my body and soul,and my mind is becoming creative again...i feel like a flower seed that couldnt grow getting its first taste of sunlight.i,m happier now.i,m expanding...i can write again..i have ideas.i can dream.

i went to the beach recently...felt like coming home...very peaceful..more on that later-bye